I'm 26 years young.
(First GW) 220 (FinalGW)140
Losing weight: 26 lbs down.Questions allowed
How do I begin to explain. When we were kids in middle school I liked him a lot, it’s not like we have ever had anything in common except for similar friends. But when he wouldn’t be with me then and didn’t tell me why I was devastated, being rejected without knowing why sucks. Then we hated each other from a distance and talked shit to other people and to each other but it’s only because I was bitter. Contacting him a few months ago wasn’t meant to be anything but us just hanging out one day, then I stayed and we kissed and he touched me and I felt all those young feelings all over again. I pushed it away because it’s not what he wanted. I just took it as we were enjoying each other and having sex. That was it. But when we didn’t talk for 2 weeks and he told me he missed me I was like, maybe he likes me back after all. Then when I showed up to his job, he couldn’t stop kissing me when 2 weeks before he was telling me that kissing me felt weird. Clearly he liked kissing me because when we were in close proximity we didn’t stop kissing for hours. He pulled me close and held me against him. And kissed me and touched me. And I loved it. I started to feel more. And when he held my hand and wanted me to keep coming back, the feelings grew to caring about him. And wanting what’s best for him and eating to spend time with him. And when josh died, my heart broke too because I knew how broken he was going to be and I wanted to be there for him. We still have nothing in common. I have tons of feelings and he bottles his, but I can feel deep down he feels something too. We watch movies and enjoy each other’s company and we both love being comfy and wearing sweats. And the sexual attraction is amazing.
All in all I don’t think this answers Why him- all I can say is why not?